A Birthday Note to Self:

Happy 30th Birthday, Sarah,

I am so proud of the woman that you’ve become. You have learned about the importance of self-love. The importance of independence. The significance of your worth. The importance of boundaries. The importance of knowing when to let go. The significance of your strength and then implementing that strength into every aspect of your life. You have hurt others. You have been hurt, as well. You have loved the wrong people. You have also loved the right people. You have allowed your ego to cloud your vision, controlling most of your actions, for a long time. You have been blind to your fault many times. You acknowledge this. You are learning. You are continually growing.

There is a beautiful thing inside of you that is thousands of years old. You are an old soul. Wise beyond your years. Thirty trips around the sun, but it feels like many more. You are strong, resilient and selfless. I am so, so grateful for your heart, for you love so deeply, care so deeply, and allow me to align with you every time we do what we love most in this world. Thank you for always feeding your soul all that she desires. All of this happiness. All this love. You created it. You attracted it. You manifested it. You are the architect of your reality. You have chosen your thoughts, your perceptions, and your reactions to external forces. You continue to possess all the tools needed to expand your awareness, to orchestrate the evolution of your consciousness, to choose happiness, and to choose love.

You are so powerful. You are that powerful. I am thankful for our mind. Though we battle with her the most, the constant back and forth has made us the woman we are today. As we continue to grow, I hope that our old self knows how much we love her and admire her. I hope that you know how hard I have been trying to heal all your past trauma and that I have created new boundaries for you. I am sorry that you gave all of your time and effort to people that didn’t give the same amount back. I am sorry if it felt like you were taking on the weight of the world at times.

I hope you learn to be more gentle with yourself and that you can surrender the stress, worry and anxiety that you battle with daily. Learn to break free from old reactions, non-useful habits, and neural pathways that no longer serve you. Learn to trust in the universe. Trust that it will bring the right people and circumstances into your life at the right time. Continue to love yourself. Continue to do it unapologetically. Protect yourself, mentally, emotionally and physically, always. I am so proud of the woman, the friend, the daughter, the sister, and the lover that you are.

Here’s to your new chapter, the best one yet.

With love,

Sarah